Ryan, her husband spoke at her benefit last night. He spoke with love and passion when he spoke about WHO Anna was to him and HOW she changed and touched the lives of both him AND so many people around him.
Anna was a beautiful soul and had such insight of life. Ryan read an email she had emailed to herself 17 years ago. It was about a man standing in front of a room full of people with tears in their eyes. Reading about a loved one who had passed. He read the dates of birth and death, but the piece that needs to be noticed the most, is the dash in between the dates. The dash represents how she lived her life. WOW. It was SO powerful, and so fitting for the night. Anna also wrote a letter to all of us. She thanked us for all the love and support so many of us gave.
She knew. She knew it was her time...
I pause on that thought for a moment. Trying to imagine the feelings of anger, confusion, or contentment one must feel when faced with that reality. ESPECIALLY when you are so young and have little kids.
How would I feel?
I honestly don't even know if I can go there in my thoughts right now. Actually, I know I cannot. What I have learned and discovered in the past few months is that life IS short and we ALL have gifts inside of us. So many of us are afraid to let those gifts out, but they NEED to be released. They need to be set free, because if our time comes before they are free, there will be so many gifts lost. Lost forever. EVERYONE has a gift, and it is up to each person to realize what that is and to have the courage to show the world.
I KNOW as a mom, the gifts that my children have been blessed with will NEVER be squashed. They will be ENCOURAGED. So many adults are afraid to dream. Afraid to believe they could be more than what they are. So many people did not have that person in their life who told them they can do anything or BE anything. My children have and will continue to hear that from both my hubby and myself.
Speaking of the hubby. I LOVE that guy. John is my partner and best friend. He is my equal in so many ways and we compliment each other in all the ways we are different. I love him. John has gifts and it is my mission to help him bring those out and shine. I learned last night that his company does ZERO leader development. HE is a leader in his work. He NEEDS leader development and I will make sure I am sharing with him what I learn. He said he likes videos more than books, which I already knew. I will share what I watch, and what I see. He WILL blossom (even though that is a word he probably doesn't want to have associated with him because he is so manly!) He will though. He just needs time to grow.
So, last night after the benefit we had a great talk. I admitted to him what he already knew. My job in direct sales is a stepping stone for where I am going. I will not quit or give up my pursuit of success with my business because I believe it is vital to the growth and discovery of who I am and how I am going to best help people with their own growth.
In other words, my direct sales business is another one of my squirrels. An intentional journey across the field collecting what I need (all my little nuts), a run up a tree, and a trusting leap from branch to branch. I have faith my landing will be secure and I will not fall. I may fail from here to there, but failure is the only way I can learn.
I will not let my gifts be squashed. I will not bottle them up any more. I will write as much as I can and I will share with all who will listen. I am put on this earth to make people feel good. I am here to direct on a positive and forward path. I am here to help people build their own confidence in life, so they can start living the life they WANT to live, and not the life they are forced to live.
I am here for reason, and I have a purpose...