I KNOW I have a ton of work I could be doing, but I also know the workload of “catching up” has been decreasing and it opens my mind to be able to relax just a bit.
I am on my journey and loving it. I feel grateful and fortunate. I listen so so many of my friends who complain about their work. My parties are sometimes filled with people complaining about their jobs, looking for a new one, and just overall not happy with their life. I want so bad to be able to convince them there is something different. However, I also feel that what I do is not for everyone. It takes a certain kind of motivation and determination to be able to do what I do and be successful at it. It is not for everyone. Sometimes I wonder if I can do it, and then I sit back and remember all I am grateful for and know I CAN AND WILL. I was chosen to be on this path and this path is a great one for me.
However, there is this underlying fear that something will happen that takes this sense of peace away from me and when that thought comes up it scares me. I have to consciously have to push those thoughts away and “think happy thoughts”. Sounds silly, I know, but that is what I need to do. I am a big manifester and I manifest a happy life, and happy existence. I manifest LOVE , and good marriage, happy and secure children, happy dogs, and living my dream.
What is my dream? Well, there was one day I was in the shower coming up with a way to describe why I do what I do. I had the words written perfectly out in my head, but then did not put them on paper. I know a version of why I do what I do, but wish I would have written it down. It wasn’t my DREAM entirely, but it was part of my vision for why I do what I do.
I GET to help people create. I GET to help people dream. I GET to help people see there may be another answer. I GET TO HELP. I feel I am on the verge of exploding with this concept when I am out there talking about my job, the products I share, and why I do what I do, but I also feel there is a level of “unsmoothness” and I get nervous, have doubts in my head it may sound corney, and then I mess up the entire message of what I am saying. I leave it with a light hearted “okay, I got that part over with, let’s move on now” attitude. I am perfectly aware that when I do this I am short falling my vision I have of the potential I can see in the people in the room. I need to work on that.