I feel so fortunate today. I am a healthy 48 year old (going through the beginning phanses of menopause... mood swings... hot flashes...  Oh well, part of getting older. 

I worked for 4 hours today, got my house cleaned with the help of my kids, and went on a walk with the dogs. Again, I feel blessed and lucky. Kaia just asked me how I feel. I said older and wiser :) 

The promotion to Black Jacket is happening. I will make this happen!!
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There are so many times I think about writing and then I don't.  When I am walking, I am constantly thinking I should be talking into my recorder and creating my story. I don't. I don't. WHY?  Obviously, because writing, as much as I love it, is not a #1 priority for me. I guess I would look at it as a side gig.  

I would love it to be a 100% priority and dream about the day I can get up, look at the ocean, walk to the beach, and collect my thoughts before writing them all down. 

Here are a few things I would love to write about: 
1. Jackson as a construction worker. He leads me Canterbury where they are digging up an old road and creating a new one. He wants to walk right through the dirt which we do when the guys aren't there.  He moves me forward so fast I have an endless pain in my left tricep (I actually worry about a tear). He walks with confidence while his sister Lily walks with reservation. She is timid and shy when we walk through these new areas. She lags behind and seems so uncertain. 
2. Actually, let's bring it to Lily. I have been walking with friends lately and also with John. I have noticed Lily likes to walk in the middle of the road, but it only occurred to me yesterday why. I think she is protecting me and whoever I am walking with. If she is in the middle of the road and a car comes, she is my protector. I know this sounds strange, but it truly made sense yesterday.  I kept her on a tight leash until we got to a sidewalk. Then she relaxed and walked in front of Joy and I. When we started for home, she went back to the middle of the street. She is my protector. My little angel. 

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It is the last day of confirmation. The last kid to go through the program.  I am so sad at the moment.  This virus has changed everything and I feel the kids are glad they don't have to be somewhere in person, and don't realize how much they are missing. That alone makes me sad. 

I hope we can at least have our Confirmation weekend where Kaia gets to go through the ceremony.  Please delay it so she can have that experience. 

Feeling really sad right now.  I remember this night for 8th graders was emotional, special, unique, and memorable.  I am just so bummed. 

What have my pups been up to?  Well., we discovered pork and Lily don't get along after 2 nights of her keeping me awake most of the night.  
HOWEVER, through that, I discovered I am really creative when sleep deprived and have been getting a lot of things done. 

Jackson like watching the corner of our yard for squirrels.  We have a bird feeder which is now empty because of the little animals. I am tempted to put it in the middle of our yard just for something more fun to watch. I picture an episode of Sylvester and Tweety. Jackson and the squirrel :) The squirrel would learn to tease Jack, and in all Jack's spare time, he would come up with ways to trick the squirrel, trap him, and then.... Seriously.  I wonder about the what then... I picture him getting the squirrel in between his paws, looking at it with surprise, and then, licking it. I can't see him as a killer. 
Lily however, would come along and steal the squirrel, biting it exactly where she knows would do the job. She is a monster in a small dog body. Mostly love, with a streak of vicious. 

We have been able to go on walks again now that the weather has warmed up. It was a long winter with many days Jackson sitting staring up at his leash.  It truly sucks that I have Raynauds and can only handle being outside for about 20 minutes before my fingers freeze and it becomes too painful. I know I have said it before, but I will move south for the winter someday. 

Jackson has been so patient and I plan on rewarding him with as many walks as possible during the next 6-7 months. 

That's about it. Nothing super huge happening. Just the start of squirrel hunting season :) 

So many people have all these covid home improvement stories. I don't. I have been working more than ever creating systems for myself and my teams and I am okay with this. 
No need to brag on FB.
I am so happy the weather is nicer so we can get outside and walk the dogs. YAY!!!  I am so happy I have a product people need and want and that I am helping others create safer homes. 
I am so happy I have a business that continues to support our family. 
I am so happy I have a husband who still has a job. 
I am so happy we are all healthy. 
I am so happy we have this time together.
I am so happy.

Now to just get rid of the COVID weight gain....  I will start Monday.

I LOVE my online business, however in order to streamline everything so I can have MORE time, I feel like I am spending A LOT OF TIME streamlining. 
I am thankful I can do it, but want it to be done. 

So thankful for the fact I am learning what John does for work. I have listened before, but am actually learning.
I am thankful for zoom. It has helped me continue to communicate with my peeps. 
I am thankful for our families peace. We all get along. We are all so chill. We all just work great together. I LOVE our family. 

OMG. You showed up.  you WERE in the background picture. You were....