I got hit with the tummy bug. I have been working on bringing my body back to a normal state and not running so high on adrenaline. Due to this change, and the supplements I have been taking, I have been sick twice in the last month.....
After 2 days in bed, a lot of trips to the bathroom, and now a backache, I am upright and typing.
Kaia has a gymnastics meet today. She suffered a concussion on the 1st of January when her head met with a pillow and a hidden iphone charger inside. CRAZY fluke accident, but nonetheless scary. I am thankful she is okay. It could have been a lot worse. I can't think about the "what if's" though. I just can't.
There truly is nothing like the love of a child towards a mom and the love of a mom towards a child. I pray everyday my children are safe and live long, healthy, and fulfilled lives. I want lots of grandbabies I can snuggle on (when they are older), and I want my amazing husband, John and I to experience this together.
Back to being a mom. Last night when I was absolutely miserable from my tummy bug, Kaia and I laid in bed and watched a really stupid movie, then refreshing episodes of Modern Family. She has her first meet today and she cannot compete, but can act as the team manager. She asked me if I would be able to go. I told her I would really have to see how I was feeling in the morning, but no matter what I would get her there and the other mom's would make sure she was taken good care of.
This a.m. as I was getting my water ready to drink I heard this small voice from upstairs say, "Mom, are you feeling better?". I answered, "I am upright". Then I asked her, "Is the underlying question really, am I going to be able to go to the meet with you?". Of course her answer was "YES". I cannot tell you enough how this simple exchange made my heart feel. Kaia knows she will be taken care of my the squad mommies, but in her heart she is comforted more by knowing I will be able to join her, and be the one that looks out for her. I know that probably sounds like it's obvious, but at the age of 13 and being my baby of the 3, there is just something so extra comforting about the need to still want me there.
Having said that. I am so blessed to have the children that I have. Both my other babies have expressed the same desire and need to have me attend certain life experiences. Even if I am not standing by their side, just having me near brings comfort to them, and for that I am so blessed to be a mom.