The last time I wrote in this blog about Jack was when he spotted a squirrel. He as SO excited! The squirrels were back. Well, I live in Minnesota and it got cold again, so the squirrels went back into hiding. However, Jackson remembers that day and now every day we drive in the car and pass the corner where he saw the squirrel, he begins to whine. For the rest of our short car ride to get his human siblings to school he stares out the window, shaking, whining, and watching the side of the road with his head and eyes, starting at the front of the window and moving towards the back of the window. Back and forth, back and forth. He has a slight wag in his tail showing he is still happy, but his confidence is a little waned. He caught a glimpse, and now he is just waiting AND waiting to catch that glimpse again so his hope is renewed and he is confident the squirrel population is not extinct just because he wants them SO bad.
It occurred to me this is how I feel this month during the promotion. Back in December, I caught a glimmer of hope that this team was indeed ready to promote. There was hope with the numbers coming in and the interest to place orders. I saw the team come to life and I began to believe this was possible.
Now, here I am, in the middle of the month 25% of the way there, and I feel like that whiny squirrel hunting dog, looking out of the window with a slight wag in my tail, just waiting to see movement. ANY type of movement. I want so hard to believe this is going to happen, but when I have to put my faith in so many other people and have faith they are going to see the big picture and WANT to come through for not only the team, but myself, I start to get a little nervous. I may not show it to the outside world. My smile is like the slight wag of Jack's tail. I am not unhappy, I am not losing hope, but I am just a little nervous about the squirrel population being extinct because I want this so bad...
I know I need to let go and "LET GOD" and I am trying. So, GOD, if you are reading this, please show me a sign that this promotion is indeed going to happen and this is the right direction in the path I am supposed to take. Amen.